The Power of Acceptance

It crossed my mind a few days ago as i was fully controlled by my tense to even study a thing for my last few papers. My mind was totally frozen for the moment to go on and for a second, i felt like letting go of everything but i know i couldn't. That was the last thing on earth i would have done.

Then at that moment i recalled back some sites telling about the power of acceptance to help reduce stress. What is acceptance and what does it got to do with reducing stress?Imagine a situation like this(this is based on a true story):

I'm a student in one of a local universities in Malaysia. I have a maths lecturer whom i would say need a serious attention on this. Whenever you approach him after lecture, no matter what question you ask him, his reply will be "go search from the library, you'll surely be able to find the answers"(18 syllables) rather than "sorry but i don't know how to answer you"(11 syllables) or "sorry but i'm feeling lazy to answer your question"(14 syllables). It's sad to see him not being able to count properly as a PhD holder in maths but well, that's not the point anyway. The point is as a matter of fact every single thing he teaches come from books. Might as well no need to give lectures and we all rely on books ONLY? With the power of acceptance he'll be able to accept that he's a lazy bum and find better excuses than stated above.

Usually it's not an easy task to accept that others are better than us in certain things. And this is one of the main keys to contributing stress besides thinking too much. I myself couldn't believe that i actually was affected by this. Upon doing that the urge to not do any mistakes greatly reduces and our performance in the real thing greatly increases instead.

Now that i've done with what i wanted to blog for this session i wonder should i change my title from "The Power of Acceptance" to "The pathetic maths lecturer"?

exam! exam!

early in the morning, yet again,
one whole day, and nothing did i gain,
moody to study, couldn't explain,
hope all my hard work, won't be in vain.

i know it's definitely not my fate,
instead it's just me that make things look late,
it is like a few more steps to checkmate,
and then i offer for a draw instead.

clueless on where exactly is my mood,
feels as if i've given it up for good,
though others might end up saying "touch wood",
but i doubt i'll survive even with food.

supposed i've been aiming too much for fame,
if this continues all i'll get is shame,
so if i really wana make my name,
right now i will have to begin the game.

almost six in the morning,
and i don't feel like sleeping,
don't know what am i writing,
don't know what am i doing.

no idea where on earth is my confidence,
the key i'm without to get my diligence,
combining these two with my intelligence,
i know i'll surely strive with excellence.

studying without determination,
i'm sure during the examination,
i'll be looking up for inspiration,
and then looking down in desperation,
but never sideways for information.

The night before the exam fever started, i wished most of my UM friends all the best in their exams in a copyrighted way:

“You’ve studied diligently without rest,
So just go in, give it your best,
& let God do the rest,
I’m sure you’ll be your best.

The “/-\”s will be in your result slipt so i couldn’t use then in this sms.”

Though it’s copyrighted, i certainly can’t stop anyone from plagiarising it. Therefore, copying it shall be fine with me. Just blogging it to share my masterpiece at the same time preserving it for my future use and of course memories.

early in the morning

can't believe my mind's in such a horrible mess,
all thanks to titas which made my life in distress,
as it has contributed a great deal of stress,
to my weakened mind which is dying more or less.

watching pokemon isn't making me wana sleep,
though the rate of increase of sleepiness is so steep,
guess the depth of laziness in me is indeed deep,
chatting with Chia and Kah Yoong still makes the time creep.

some time before a crapper named Toh Guo Shen,
came to my room for some crappy discussion,
Pikakhim did show his determination,
by fighting back without procrastination.

but sad to say i lost my concentration,
to fight back with my great imagination,
as i was so in my hallucination,
for i've too much of titas' information,
and sleeping'll wipe off my desperation.

i know i should go and sleep now,
it's 4.21 a.m. now,
but i am finishing this now,
it is the end so goodnight now.

***According to edited-version of TITAS, "sesuatu karya yang hebat hanya dapat dinikmati oleh pakar-pakar". So i'm teaching you now to "nikmati" the poems you have read and really enjoy their beauty. Besides the pronunciation for each line ends the same, the number of syllables for each line are the same too.

P/S: this was written very early in the morning so some meaning might go out of the topic but the other parts of the professionality remain unchanged.

This was supposed to be posted at around 5 a.m. today but because of the lack of the professionality of Pu$@t T3kn0log1 Maklum@t, i couldn't post this at that moment.
Have to wait 12 hours before i can upload it now

For my roommate, Khoo Kah Khim, the Gundam fanatic

what a good job you have done,
for someone like you who have just began,
writing poems trying to make me stun,
despite knowing you can ONLY beat me in the long-run,
here i am playing along to make things fun.

sitting on the so-called couch in our dorm,
trying to compete with ressurector.blogspot.com,
i must say i'm impressed with your first bomb,
after looking at pikakhim.blogspot.com.

nothing better to do

was around midnight when you ate a burger
before you watch conan without feeling suffer
as you didnt even feel your hunger
on the 1st morning of November

early in the morning (4.24a.m.) of 1st Nov 2008
written for Adeline Chia as i had nothing better to do at this hour

exam...haihzz

Everyday sleeping early in the a.m.,
and waking up early in the p.m.,
all because of the final exam,
at the end of this 1st sem.